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FORUM KOMUNIKASI MAHASISWA ITB BOGOR PRESENTS GANESHOUT! TRY OUT SNMPTN

2012-01-14T22:18:00.000+07:00

Buat yang mau masuk ITB, anak ITB 2011 yg berdomisili di Bogor mengadakan Try out SNMPTN dan open house ITB. Acaranya itu tanggal 22 Januari 2012 di SMA Regina Pacis Bogor. Ada simulasi SNMPTN IPA & IPS, + buat yang mau masuk FSRD ITB ada simulasi test keterampilan gambar suasana juga loh. Dan ada juga open house;nya. Pengalaman ikutan try out formasib tahun lalu, open house ini yang menurut gw sangat berguna untuk menambah motivasi. Buat peringkat pertama hadiahnya netbook loh :) . dan banyak door prizenya juga loh.

buat yang minat bisa tanya2 ke CP atau follow aja @ganeshout2012

2012-01-07T20:23:00.000+07:00

2011 saya sangat amat galau dan labil.
2012 saya ga boleh gitu lagi

#resolusi (?)

I'm Back

2011-11-24T22:13:00.000+07:00

Ya jadi ceritanya ga pernah posting blog lagi semenjak kuliah. Terlalu banyak kalau mau diceritain satu-satu apa saja yang sudah terjadi. Sedikit mau cerita nih. Jadi ini ceritanya saya baru aja pulang tanding futsal. Pulang dengan kekalahan. ah sedih. Kalah terus kalo ada saya kayaknya. Gak tau kenapa jadi mau cerita tentang saya dan futsal.

Lupa pertama kali kapan main futsal. Paling ya pas pelajaran olahraga doang di SMA. Terus diajakin ekskul futsal sama anak-anak futsal pas SMA, karena waktu itu ga ada kiper. Banyak kenal kakak-kakak kelas & ade-ade kelas disana. Bener-bener banyak deh kenangannya sama tim futsal SMA saya dulu, Godzi. Dari kenangan-kenangan pas tanding, ada yang menang, ada yang kalah, kalah sampe skor lawan belasan, acara nginep "terheboh" selama hidup gw. Rasanya senyum terus kepikiran semua itu. Tapi kadang-kadang sedih juga sih, kalo inget betapa payahnya gw kalo maen :(. Kayaknya banyak banget salah gw kalo main, udah berisik teriak-teriak, jaga gawangnya juga ga bener, padahal seharusnya bisa menang tapi jadi kalah karena saya rada-rada dodol, dan masih banyak lagi, Terlebih lagi pertandingan terakhir bareng mereka, Ah kayaknya saya ngecewain mereka banget lah. Padahal mereka mainnya udah hebat, tapi saya grogi jadi awal-awal udah kebobolan banyak. Bener-bener kalo diinget udah rasanya ga mau tanding futsal lagi.

Tapi bareng mereka tuh bener-bener deh saya belajar banyak banget-banget. Dulu saya ga suka olahraga, tapi semenjak sama mereka, mau ga mau saya jadi suka. Mungkin tingkat kecintaan saya sama futsal dibandingin tingkat kecintaan mereka sama futsal itu masih rendah banget. Tapi beneran deh saya seneng banget kalo bisa main. Rasanya tuh ga kepikiran yang lain-lain. Dulu awal-awal kalo main terus kalah & kebobolan banyak, bener-bener udah pengen nangis, tapi karena ada mereka, jadi lebih bisa nerima lah. Terus disini saya juga jadi sadar, kalo saya itu orangnya panik-an banget banget, dan akhirnya jadi sering neriakin orang kalo lawannya udah deket. Dari mereka juga saya belajar yang namanya usaha semaksimal mungkin sampe titik darah penghabisan *aduh lebay*. Dulu ceritanya pernah udah kebobolan belasan - kosong itu, tapi bener-bener di akhir-akhir tuh kita main yang bener-bener maksimal lah, dan saya enjoy banget main sama mereka waktu itu. Saya udah ga mikirin skor berapa tapi bener-bener usaha maksimal lah ngeliat semangat mereka juga hebat banget. Tapi ya gitu, mereka tuh hebat-hebat. Saya jadi ngerasa nyusahin banget gitu, apalagi kalo udah kebobolan di awal-awal + banyak lagi.

Kembali ke pertandingan terakhir saya bareng Godzi, membuat saya mikir kalo saya tuh payah banget. Ga mau lagi 'tanding' (bukan 'main' ya) futsal. Karena saya ngerasa ya gitu skill saya cupu, ga adaan, bener-bener cuma nyusahin aja ntar kalo main. Tapi terus suatu hari di saat udah kuliah, temen saya bilang fakultas saya mau ikutan tpbcup. Itu tuh semacam tanding antar fakultas, tapi yang main tuh anak-anak tahun pertamanya gitu. Ah rasanya tuh pengen banget ikut, beneran rasanya saya kangen futsal, kangennya banget-banget lah. Tapi ya gitu, "trauma" masa lalu. Tapi kerinduaan saya mengalahkan semuanya #eaaaa. *Btw, ini teh bukan cerita yang happy ending ya*. Ya jadi saya bantuin temen saya itu ngajakin anak-anak cewenya ikutan main. Agak sedikit susah sih, tapi terkumpul lah 12 orang nih ceritanya yang mau ikutan. Saya pengen banget sedikit aja test diri saya, masihkah saya secupu itu. Ternyata masih :( aaaa sedih. Jadi tanpa pernah latihan satu kalipun, tanpa punya seragam tim disaat fakultas lain udah punya, kita tanding pertama kali dan menang. Puji Tuhan banget rasanya itu mah. Seneng banget ngeliat teman-teman baru saya ini bener-bener usaha membela fakultas kita ini.

Tibalah pertandingan kedua. Lawannya jago euy. Kita masih belom pernah latihan. Sayanya bingung, ga konsen liatin si bola. Kalah deh. Ga enak banget rasanya ke mereka. Sedih juga ngeliat temen2 mainnya kayaknya cape banget, karena cadangannya bener-bener cuma satu orang. Saya sih enak nongkrong di bawah gawang, larinya dikit, cuma korban lutut doang. Bener-bener deh sedih liatnya, saya pernah nyoba main dulu banget dan ga kuat. Karena ya kalo main ya mereka lari-lari terus. Tapi ngeliat mereka bener-bener beresin itu satu pertandingan dengan cuma 1 orang cadangan, rasanya saya pengen peluk mereka satu-satu terus bilang kalian hebat bangeeeeeeeet. *Mungkin ini tekesan lebay, tapi beneran deh, saya tau mereka udah cape banget waktu itu, bahkan ada yang sakit, tapi mereka usaha bener2 dan itu buat saya salut sama mereka*. Dan saya dapet oleh2 keseleo dan pergelangan kaki saya sampe sekarang kayak gajah gara-gara salah posisi kaki pas mendarat abis jatoh. Dan tentunya perasaan ga enak itu muncul lagi. Sedih juga ngeliat salah satu temen saya nangis pas abis kalah, tapi saya bingung mesti ngapain. Empati saya emang jelek banget. heuh maap ya temanku yang itu.

Kita semua udah ngerasa yaudah gitu selesai gitu. Ga ada tanding-tanding lagi abis ini. Terus tiba-tiba tadi sore, LO'nya sms kalo hari ini tanding jam 7. Langsung bingung sayanya, 2 jam sebelum tanding baru tau. SMSin anak-anak, lagi-lagi cuma 5 orang yang lain yang bisa main. Astaga lah cuman 1 lagi cadangannya? Padahal saya tau mereka semua capek tadi pagi abis lari 6 keliling saraga. Tapi ya apa mau dikata, masa kita kalah sebelum tanding. Itu kan lebih ga lucu lagi. Sisi manusiawi saya teh sedikit pengen marah gitu karena ada beberapa orang yg dulu bilang mau ikutan tapi ga pernah dateng pas tanding sama sekali. Tapi saya sadar, ya mereka juga capek, dan mungkin ga segitu sukanya main futsal. Hah, daripada nambah dosa gitu kesel sama orang, ya saya mah nyoba ngerti aja deh. Tapi tetep aja gitu sedih, ngeliat 5 orang yang dateng itu bener-bener mesti berjuang gitu. Dan saya sadar, lawannya teh pasti hebat. Bener-bener berserah sama Tuhan deh saya mah. Coba dibawa enjoy aja. Singkat cerita, kalah lagi. Dan saya maennya parah banget lah jeleknya. Ngecewain lagi. Jadi semakin bingung saya. Ga enaknya maksimal sama 5 orang itu. Ga enak sama anak tpb fakultas saya yg nonton. Semakin rasanya aaaaa udah ga mau tanding lagi euy.

Terus sekarang akhirnya saya galau. Padahal sekarang harusnya saya ngerjain tugas. Tugas. ya, Tugas....

*gantung sekali ini*

2011-06-30T02:00:00.003+07:00

AAAAAARRRRRGHHHHHHH!!!!

Lega juga akhirnya penantian gue selama ini membuahkan hasil. YAY! Gw akhirnya diterima di FSRD ITB! Puji Tuhan banget banget banget deh ini. Rasanya masih kayak mimpi

Jadi kemaren sekitar jam 6an sore gw baru buka twitter, dan tiba-tiba pada bilang pengumuman udah bisa di buka. Langsunglah gw buka web'nya, dan jeng jeng jeng , gw diterima, pake huruf bold

Sumpah rasanya ga percaya banget-banget, langsung loncat-loncat (suer ga pake lebay ini), peluk nyokap, peluk nenek gw. Bener-bener masih ga percaya.Langsung BBM sisca, my best friend yg udah tinggal di asrama sekarang :'( . Begitu liat twitter lagi, yang lain pada bilang web'nya belom bisa dibuka. Panik lah gw, ditambah rasa ga percaya karena rasanya uwow banget, gw memutuskan buka lagi, dan damn! ga bisa. Stop bilang ke yang lain-lain. Gw memutuskan untuk tunggu sampai jam 7.

Dan ternyataaaa ketika gw buka jam 7, gw tetep diterima! Man!

Ga pernah sesenang ini gw dalam hidup gw. Tuhan itu memang baik banget :). Senengnya lagi , teman seperjuangan gw, arya, juga keterima!!! Dan dia bakalan botak sebentar lagi, itu janji dia. Sumpah ga rela!!!! Ga rela liat orang botak!!! Dan sekarang masih nyari anak recis cewe yg bisa diajak bareng-bareng. Dari SNMPTN undangan, cowo semua masa. Masih tanya sana-sini siapa cewe yang dapet ITB juga.

Ya intinya gw seneng banget! bersyukur banget banget banget bisa diterima. No more galau mikirin kuliah. Seneng bisa nyenengin bokap nyokap.

Gw tau jalaninnya bakalan ga mudah, tapi yg gw percaya, gw pasti bisa, pasti mampu. Karena kalo gw ga mampu, Tuhan ga bakal kasih ini buat gw. Aaaa, How I love my Lord. Yang pasti juga, gw ga bakalan sia2in kesempatan ini. I'll do my best for the next 4 years. Wish me luck!!!

Edisi Galau Kuliah

2011-06-29T01:46:00.000+07:00

Besok pengumuman SNMPTN tertulis. Dan gue super galau! Sekali lagi, SUPER GALAU!

Pilihan pertama gue adalah FAKULTAS SENI RUPA DAN DESIGN INSTITUT TEKNOLOGI BANDUNG!!!! Yup, FSRD ITB! Kenapa harus FSRD ITB? Pertama, gue sangat anti pelajaran IPA, meskipun gue anak IPA. Dan gue juga ga terlalu minat sama yang namanya hapal menghapal. Jadi meskipun gue ga jago gambar atau apalah itu, gue merasa satu-satunya bidang yang gue cocok adalah seni. Kedua, FSRD ITB itu udah yang paling top di sini. Jadi ya berjuanglah saya untuk itu 5 bulan terakhir. Keinginan untuk masuk FSRD ITB semakin kuat waktu ikut Try Out SNMPTN dari anak-anak ITB. Gue nonton video kegiatan mereka, dan menurut gue hidup kayak gitu tuh sangat menyenangkan!

Terus apa aja yang sudah gue lakukan untuk mencapai mimpi gue itu? Pertama, gue les gambar di Nirmana yang memang tempat les untuk persiapan tes FSRD ITB. Gue les dari sekitar Januari atau Februari gitu. FYI, sebelum ini gue ga bisa gambar sama sekali. Dari kecil gue suka pelajaran seni rupa Cuma kalau bikin kerajinan tangan, kalau disuruh gambar, hahaha jangan ditanya deh. Gambar gue kayak anak TK. Jadi dengan modal keinginan masuk ITB, akhirnya gue les. Awal-awal les gue sangat minder (sampai terakhir les juga gitu sih). Secara gue masuk udah agak telat, yang lain udah mulai gambar apa, gue baru gambar garis. Terus, temen gue, Arya & Nathan, yang masuknya barengan gue, mereka emang udah dasarnya jago gambar. Maaak! Gimana bisa gue keterima ITB kalo gini caranya?!?!? Bulan demi bulan pun berlalu #eaaaa. Meskipun tetep ga jago gambar, paling gak, gue bisa lah gambar orang dll buat gambar suasana. Meskipun keliatan banget gambar gue kalo dibandingin sama anak-anak yang lain tuh agak menyedihkan. Tapi untungnya “guru-guru” gambar gue selalu memberi masukan-masukan (meskipun gw kadang sering tetep aja ngulangin kesalahan yg sama). Terus, setelah setengah perjalanan menuju SNMPTN, ternyata diumumin kalo tes untuk FSRD ITB itu adalah *jeng jeng jeng jeng* IPS!! WOW! MAN! IPS! IPS!!! YA! IPS!. Semakin mati lah gue. Singkat cerita, gue ga ngambil les IPS sama sekali, karena gue udah pasrah. Sebenernya tadinya gue ngarep banget keterima SNMPTN Undangan, jadi ga perlu tes IPS gila itu. Tapi sayang sekali rejeki gue bukan di SNMPTN undangan.

Kalo ditanya orang pilihan kedua SNMPTN gue apa. Gw selalu menjawab gue ga milih apa-apa. Sebenernya gue milih, tapi sumpah itu pilihan yang bodoh banget! Not gonna tell it to anyone. Anggap saja gue Cuma mengisi pilihan pertama.

Terus gimana pas tesnya? Singkat cerita :

- TPA : Ga beres!!! Cuma ngisi sedikit! Dan yang paling sucks, ga ada tes yg ada gambar2nya itu loh. DAMN!

- Tes Kemampuan Dasar : Maaaak! Mati intinya. Matdas Cuma isi sedikit, BI ga yakin, dan Bahasa Inggrisnya sumpah tewas! Susah :’(

- Tes IPS : ya lumayanlah, meskipun ga yakin, tapi masih bisa nebak-nebak dan ngisi banyak

- Tes Gambar : ngegambar sih ngegambar, jawab soal lumayan, Cuma lupa ngasih bendera :’(. Tapi gue gatau gambar saingan-saingan gue itu sebagus apa. Jadi dibilang optimis enggak, dibilang pesimis juga enggak. Entahlah

Ya ya ya, jadi kembali ke paragraf pertama. Saya galau! Gimana ini? Gimana kalo ternyata ga keterima FSRD ITB??? Gimana? Gimana? Rela sih rela. Masih ada tahun depan. Tes lagi. Tapi pasti sedih banget. Ga mau ngecewain bokap nyokap. Meskipun nyokap bilang “gapapa kalo ga keterima, kan masih bisa kuliah di tempat lain” tapi tetep aja pasti dia kecewa if i couldn’t make it. Rawr!

Sebenernya dari dulu, gue ngebayangin gue kuliah di jogja. Bokap nyokap gue dulu kuliah di jogja. Gue lebih sering ke jogja daripada ke bandung. Dan gue sangat amat suka suasana jogja. Tapi ITB adanya di Bandung!!! Damn! Sedih juga menerima kenyataan ITB itu Institut Teknologi Bandung #apaan-banget! Kenapa ITB bukan di jogja.

Ya, jadi kalau besok jam 7 malam gue buka www.itb.ac.id dan menemukan gue diterima disana, ampun deh bakalan seneng banget banget banget banget! Meskipun hati gue sebenarnya menginkan gue di tempat lain.

Tapi yang jadi masalah adalah apabila gue ga diterima!

Plan A :Ikut tes ITENAS ambil desain produk. ITENAS itu di Bandung. Menurut guru les gue, di bandung itu no 2, setelah ITB. Banyak dosen ITB yang ngajar di ITENAS juga. Jadi worth to try lah, sementara menunggu SNMPTN tahun depan. Kalo menurut temen gue Alris, gapapa lah kalo mesti kuliah di ITENAS, secara Institut Teknologi NASIONAL, kalo ITB kan Cuma Institut Teknologi BANDUNG. Haha boleh-boleh, biar gue ga sedih-sedih amat kalo emang jalannya di ITENAS. Itu juga kalo diterima! Kalau gue menjalani plan A ini, tenanglah sedikit hidup gue, meskipun tetep ini bukan di jogja. Di bandung banyak temen. Jadi baguslah hidup gue kayaknya kalo beneran kayak begitu

Plan B : Ini Cuma sedikit yang tahu, karena takut orang pada mikir “macem-macem” kalo tau plan gue yang ini. Jadi rencana B adalah, gue test ISI (Institut Seni Indonesia) ambil desain interior. Nyokap kayaknya lebih milih gue ke ISI daripada ke ITENAS. Tapi gatau juga sih. Karena dia lebih nanyain ini. What’s the problem kalo gue ke ISI padahal ISI itu di jogja? Ya begitulah, akan sulit membuka lembar baru dalam hidup gue kalo gue kuliah di ISI #halah. Pokoknya kayaknya misi “menjalani-hidup-baru” gue bakalan gagal kalo gue kuliah di jogja. Tapi gue pengen banget man kuliah di jogja. Tapi tapi tapi ya gitu

Ya apapun hasilnya besok , gue tahu Tuhan punya rencana yang terbaik. Sekian edisi galau kuliah part 1 dari gue. Mari kita lihat apa yg akan terjadi besok. Wish me luck!!!!

that's what friends are for :)

2011-05-16T19:44:00.000+07:00

This last three days had been pretty tough for me. I got so many things to think. I thought about my graduation, my future university, my position in something I couldn't tell here, and my feeling about someone. I got a lil bit stressed. And I felt so down. I kept it for myself cause I didn't want to embarrass myself by telling it to others. The only things I could do was writing "galau tweets" and pm. But thank God, I still have a lot of friends that I can count on.
Thanks to my 9f-amily for always making me smile, even though they didn't know my problem, being with them is really really made me happy. Thanks to cimeng for all the genius solutions and quote about "angkot". Thanks to dije and clara for always being care about me, for always asking if I had a problem everytime I tweet like this >>> :(. And thaks to arya for always being honest in giving his opinion, even though sometimes it hurts because he is very rude, but everything he said is always right.

GRAVITY - SARA BAREILLES

2011-05-12T00:30:00.000+07:00

Something always brings me back to you
It never takes too long
No matter what I say or do
I still feel you here ‘til the moment I’m gone

You hold me without touch
You keep me without chains
I never wanted anything so much
Than to drown in your love and not feel your rain

Set me free, leave me be
I don’t wanna fall another moment into your gravity
Here I am and I stand so tall
I’m just the way I’m supposed to be
But you’re on to me and all over me

You loved me ‘cause I’m fragile
When I thought that I was strong
But you touch me for a little while
And all my fragile strength is gone

I live here on my knees
As I try to make you see
That you’re everything I think I need
Here on the ground

But you’re neither friend nor foe
Though I can’t seem to let you go
The one thing that I still know
Is that you’re keeping me down
You’re keeping me down

Door to my heart is closed

2010-09-06T20:34:00.002+07:00

The key to my heart I once gave to you
I trusted you and I believed in you

Once you were my everything
The one that made my heart shout and sing

I told you about how I feel for you
The only thing I wanted - was that you love me too

The key to my heart you did throw away
when your hands wandered and you let them go astray

You would have broken my heart,
if I would have had the key
but so my heart turned to stone
that was never the way it was meant to be

Tears and pain have turned my heart into stone
I closed the entrance to my soul with an iron lock

Rusty and dark the lock now is
Forgotten laughter, love and bliss

In some rainy night I still can hear the song of my heart
Singing of forgotten times and our love
Singing of the key that once you got

Singing of you - because I still love you ... a lot!

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All Time Low Concert Part II

2010-08-26T20:52:00.002+07:00

Here's the pictures I promised you. Sorry for the lack of the quality.

Alris, Me & Velda

Alris, Me & Elkarina

Rocket Rockers

I want this banner!!!!

Alex Gaskarth

Jack Barakat

Zac

Rian (look at his triceps!!)

Jack & His

Jack & Zac

Jack Again

They Rocked!!!

2010-08-12T23:13:00.002+07:00

one more reason I should never have met you just another reason I could never forget you

2010-08-10T22:30:00.003+07:00

Me, Velda, Alris, and Elkarina went to Tennis Indoor Senayan to watch ALL TIME LOW on August 4. It was my second rock concert. I don't know why but before the concert began I didn't feel the same excitement as I felt for the Boys Like Girls' concert last January.

Me, Velda, and Elkarina went together, then met Alris at the venue. When we got into the venue, there was already lotta people. We got the same spot like on the BLG concert. Lucky me, latter we found out that Jack's position was in front of us. We waited while talking about our "future". We waited about 3 hours before All Time Low performed. After an opening act by a local band, Rocket Rockers, the light dimmed again. People started scream again. Then the real concert began.

The crowd went crazy when All Time Low played the first song, Damned If I Do Ya (Damned If I Don't). People started to jump and push. It was pretty crazy. I got pushed so hard. But I kept jump and sing along with Alex. LOL. I didn't want to lose opportunity to scream my lungs out singing their song. The bras started to fly to the stage when the second or third song was played. As usual, Jack put his collection on his mic stand.

Overall, the concert was awesome! Jack was so attractive. He kept moving around the stage and I couldn't take my eyes off of him. LOL. Alex was pretty awesome too. I couldn't see Zack clearly, because he was on the other side of the stage. And Rian was "hiding" behind his drum set.

And the most surprising thing happened that night is *drum-roll* All Time Low and Rocket Rockers played Blink 182's song "Dammit". When I heard the intro, I was soooooo happy. FYI, I LOVE BLINK 182! And hearing ATL played their song felt like heaven. That was my favorite part of this concert.

ATL played Dear Maria Count Me In at the closing. I felt that the time flied so fast. I didn't realize that they already played 14 songs. I really need more than 14 songs! But FUCKYEAHALLTIMELOW! I hope one day, they'll come back as they promised.

I'll post the pictures latter, cause I'm too lazy to edit them on photoshop.

goodbye heaven!

2010-07-11T19:32:00.004+07:00

yeah today is the last day of my not-so-long-holiday. Tomorrow I'll be back to school. I am so excited! I really wanna know who my classmates are. I hope I won't be in the same class with him (finger-crossed). And I hope one of my best friends will be in the same class with me. But, I am pretty sad remembering that I can't wake up late again. Tomorrow, I should wake up at 4.30 because I'm on the student council and all the members should come at 6.30 tomorrow to help the new students for their orientation day. And I already promised myself to watch the final game of world cup which will be held around 1 or 2 pm tomorrow. Errr. Just so you know, I haven't watch any world cup match this year, that's why I should watch the final one. LOL

I don't know if I will be ready for school again or not. This is my last year in high school which means it's gonna be hard for me. I should study, study, and study to prepare the national exam and I should thinking about university thingy since I am still not sure about the major that I'm gonna take. Then, I am still not ready facing the assignments and the daily tests. My gosh! I want more holidaaaaay! Beside them, I am still not ready to face more high school drama. the actors and actress, the fight, pretense, everything! I hope I can handle it and enjoy my last year in high school.

p.s. : I haven't watch Eclipse! and not really interested actually, since I didn't watch New Moon either.

p.p.s : I think I should deactivate my twitter account (again). because twitter is the main temptation in my study time! what do you think? should I or shouldn't I?

what can I say?

2010-07-03T13:42:00.005+07:00

i have a lot of concepts in my mind for photo shoots. i got them after reading a lot of fairy tales. but the problem is i don't have any friend that will be patient enough to be my model for the photo shoot. because, yknow it will take hours to get a satisfying result for an amateur and a-little-bit-perfectionist like me. well, there are a lot of amateur photographers out there that visualizing their concept by making self portraits. i can do it too, BUT i have no ability to put that kind of model expression on my not-pretty-face. total failure happened last week, Leon said that i look like a depressed person on this photo. LOL. what can i say?

truth be told, i miss you! truth be told, i'm lying

2010-07-03T00:11:00.002+07:00

title by all-american reject

2010-06-26T13:47:00.002+07:00

Book Review : The Short Second Life of Bree Tanner by Stephenie Meyer

2010-06-13T02:54:00.004+07:00

I just finished reading "The Short Second Life of Bree Tanner" written by Stephenie Meyer who also write the Twilight saga. It tells about the newborn vampire, Bree. Bree was mentioned in Eclipse. She's the last vampire from the Riley's coven. This book tells about how Bree and Diego made a relationship they never had before in their life as vampires. But their relationship ended tragically. This book tells more about the newborn vampires life when they still need a lot of effort to control their self. I gave 3 stars for this book. It is so much like the twilight saga, but with less romantic scene. If you like the twilight saga, you may also like this. I'm always impressed how Stephenie Meyer can explain someone's thought and feeling so clearly. She did it again with Bree's. I think this book will help us understand Eclipse from another perspective. So, if you are too lazy to read Eclipse before you watch the movie, this book is good to recall the story on Eclipse

You can read this book on its official website (here). Or you can find the download-able version on 4shared, even though its official website tell us that it can't be downloaded.

Give Me Something To Believe In

2010-05-02T01:23:00.008+07:00

I don't know how to start this post. As you know, I'm not good at combining words and it's hard for me to write down what's on my mind. I hope you understand the point.

Kak Cassey, Jane, and Karen posted what they think about love on their blog. They inspired me to write this. They make me think what love really is for me.

So maybe I can start with this question :

"What is LOVE?"

Hell, I have no idea about it.

Kak Cassey wrote something about falling out love

"There is no such thing as 'falling out of love'. If you think you've fallen out of it, you probably never have been in it."

Well, I used to think that I ever fell in love with some guys. But what Kak Cassey said made me think "did I really fall in love?". I still can't answer it. First, I keep fallin out love. Then, I'm often confused every time I try to convince myself about what I really feel about a boy. Here's the options:

* I admire him
* I just wanna know him closer
* I like him
* I love him
* I am obsessed with him

I don't know what's the differences between them. So, it's hard to define what I really feel inside for a guy. Or they are just steps that lead you to be fallin in love with someone? First, you admire him, then you wanna know him more, after that you like him. Then suddenly you realize that you love him until it makes you obsessed. Ah I have no idea about it. After thinking about that, I conclude that I've never really fallen in love.

But Karen said "every girl in this universe must be fell in love, even once." Well how it feels when you are fallin in love with someone then?

When I can't stop staring at a guy because nobody can be as attractive as him and I don't notice the presence of other people, am I already fallin in love?
When I can't stop thinking about him and happy moments we spent together, am I already fallin in love?
When I am happy inside and outside every time he crosses my mind, am I already fallin in love?
When I always try to get excuses so I can talk to him and I just wanna be with him forever because I know he will always make me secure and comfortable, am I already fallin in love?
When I feel jealous when he's with another girl, am I already fallin in love?
When I feel a lot of enthusiasm and strength because of him, am I already fallin in love?
When I care a lot about him, until I forget about caring myself, am I already fallin in love?

I just googled and that are what people said about signs of falling in love. I don't know, but I think love is bigger than that. It's not just about things above. Even though I don't know what it is, I believe there are another things that make love amazing. A sixteen years old girl like me have not enough experience to define what it is. Maybe my love to anyone is not deep enough, so i still haven't feel the magic of love.

Now it's about heartbreak. We can't leave this thing if we want to talk about love. They said love is painfully beautiful. I think the heartbreak makes it painful. I got my serious heartbreak for 3 times. It does hurt of course. It's kinda ruin my life for a while. But it surely can be healed. Heartbreak doesn't make me afraid to be in love. Because I know that's the risk of being in love. Even though it hurts, I know I will always get through this.

But for now, I think I am not ready for love. Just like what I said, it's not that I'm afraid of the risk. I just don't wanna love someone too deep. Now, for me guys are not to be loved. I just want to be their friends. Because hanging out with the guys can be so much fun without involving love.

There's something that can make me be myself when I am with my boy (with space) friends. I don't care about what I said in front of them, because I know they will not think much about it. I can say whatever I want. It's kinda different if I am with the girls. I am afraid if my words will hurt them, so I become more controllable when I am together with the girls.

Then, boys always know how to make me laugh. Especially my close boy friends and my classmates. They're kinda crazy. They often do and say silly things that make me ROTFL. Even though sometimes they can be annoying if they start "bullying" me. Don't get them wrong. They don't literally bully me. They just try to have some fun by trying to make me upset. I know they're just kidding. And I can accept that.

Some of them are great friends to talk. Once again, talking about silly things with them is fun. I also like sharing my problem with them. Because they are more realistic. Even though sometimes, the way they give me advice is kinda rude. But it's good for me, because sometime the girls will always support us even though they know that we should stop.

Umm, don't get me wrong. It's not that I don't like talking and sharing my problems with my girls. I do love my girls, they can be crazy too. And they help me a lot if I have problems. But it's still different. Ah hope you know what I mean.

Well, I think this post is already long enough. And it's already out of topic. The conclusion is now I don't wanna think about love. Because I still can have some fun with boys without loving them. And I don't really need to be in love now. But of course I still hope that I can feel the true love, someday. I am waiting if someone can really knock my heart and make me feel the love. Someday baby, someday.

Daily update

2010-04-26T01:08:00.005+07:00

Nothing happened lately. Only same old routine. School thingy drives me crazy. My teachers give me assignments and daily tests with no mercy. The next 7 days will be very though. Math, biology, bahasa, chemistry, and Sundanese daily tests are waiting for me. I have a long list of assignments that needs to be done ASAP. But, I am a real procrastinator. I usually put off doing my assignments until the day before the deadline. Then, I will stay awake until the assignment is done which is usually around 1 or 2 in the morning. Like today. Instead of making hortatory exposition text for tomorrow's english class, I chat with my friends , reyner and debby, on Skype, and I also text with my friend. And now is 1.30, instead of making it, I am blogging! Ah, school will be fun without assignments and tests.

What did happen last week?
- Jane's birthday party. Gonna post about it later.
- On Monday I watched a documentary film about abortion in the religion class. In the middle of movie, I ran away to the rest room because I need some air, I was sick watching the violence in the movie. It was horrible how the doctor literally destroyed the baby. I got nausea when watching it.
On the way to the rest room, I almost fainted. I couldn't see clearly. It was like there was something covered my eyes. I felt hot inside my ear. I was so afraid that i would throw up in the library which I should get through before reaching the rest room. But when I reached the rest room, I didn't know what to do. So I went back to the library, still with the bad sight and hearing. I came to the librarian and tell her that I was feeling like I would faint. So she led me to a chair and she thought that I was trance. She told me to pray to God, and asked for His help. It was kinda silly for me, but I did what she said. I was a little bit afraid about that. But I know I wasn't. I was just not feeling so well.
After I felt a little bit better, I went back to the audio visual room, and asked my consular if I could stay outside and not watched the rest of the film. She said okay. Maybe it was because my face looked so pale. Then I sat again in the library. XI IPA 4 guys asked me what did happened to me because of my pale face. Not long after that, Audrey came, she didn't want to continue watching it too. LOL, at least I got friend. Then when the film was over, we went back to the audio visual room.
I am still confused how could I be like that. I mean it's just weird for me. Because usually it's okay for me watching movies like Saw which show a lot of violence scenes. I think I got trauma everytime I remember it, just like what I feel now. I am afraid.
Argh I should stop writing, I need some sleep. Gonna write the English assignment on the morning, I think.

I'm So Sorry

2010-04-24T00:36:00.003+07:00

For The Lack Of Posting

Here's my excuses :

I just don't know what to be posted.
I am not a good writer. It's kinda hard for me to combine words into a sentences. Usually , after I write 3 sentences or so about a topic, I'm stuck. Or I suddenly think, "uh what the hell I am doing", "this post is crap". "No one will be interested reading this kind of post". bla bla bla . Then all of the unfinished posts end up in the draft section.
My english is bad!! Now I'm thinking to write in Bahasa. Or I think it'll be better if I write a bilingual post. But what I write in Bahasa sometimes will be so weird if I translate it to English, and vice versa. So for the next post, I will write in Bahasa and English, but they are not the translation of each other. (the sentences before reflects how bad my english is)
Lately, I am so unproductive in taking photogaraph. Well, actually I took a lot of pictures, but they're just not good enough and I'm too lazy to edit them in Photoshop.

I'm Watching You Baby

2010-04-13T19:45:00.002+07:00

2010-04-11T17:34:00.002+07:00

AMOR ES MENTIRA

My Kind Of Boy

2010-04-03T23:31:00.003+07:00

1. brown hair | black hair | blonde hair | red hair

2. tall | short | same height as you

3. ear piercings | eyebrow piercings | snake bites | no piercings | other

4. tattoos | no tattoos | idgaf

6. shy | outgoing | in between

7. mellow | hyper | loud | quiet

8. blue eyes | brown eyes | green eyes

9. wears tight jeans | wears normal jeans | other

10. converse | vans | nikes | skate shoes | other

12. compliments too much | compliments when necessary

13. jokes around all the time | jokes when necessary

14. sensitive | hides emotion | acts tough

16. loves to hold | loves to be held

17. tons of muscles | fit | skinny | chubby

18. pale | average | tan | dark

19. cusses a lot | never cusses | moderatly cusses | only cusses around friends | who even gives a fuck

random quote

2010-04-02T17:23:00.004+07:00

Selama ini, seringkali Sisy merasa tidak percaya diri apabila berada di dekat Diaz. Apakah Diaz bahagia bersahabat dengannya? Apakah ia menyusahkan Diaz? Apakah dirinya cukup berarti bagi Diaz sampai ia akan merasa kehilangan banget saat suatu hari dirinya harus pergi

Lukisan Hujan, a novel by Sitta Karina (page : 293)

Photoshop Is Love

2010-03-23T02:07:00.006+07:00

I tried making sketches with photoshop for the first time. The result isn't so bad. But, I still need more practice.

FYI, for this week, I will get my days off because the 12th grader is doing their national exam. I am so happy!

They Said "Seasons Change, But People Don't"

2010-03-19T22:51:00.005+07:00

I used to believe on that. But now, I don't think so.

A couple weeks ago, my friend wrote something like this on her facebook status : "everbody is changing". Then her sister gave a comment like this "same like you".

At the same time, I felt the same thing like my friend. I feel that everybody was changing. the old friends, the new friends, my family, all of them were changing. Some of them transformed to be someone I don't know. Some of them had a little change on their personality or their attitude. I felt some of them ignored me like they never knew me before. Some of my closest friends got some new friends, and voila, there's a distance between us, it was like I was not on their world anymore. It was like there was a wall between me and them. A wall without any single door that let me join them like we used to. It was like I am a stranger. The other were changing on their own way. I felt I lose my friends.

One thing for sure, I hate changes, unless it makes my life easier. LOL. I simply hate to adapt with the new situation that was caused by one thing called changes. At that time, I did miss the old time. I was sad. I literally cried everyday, begging God to give me back my old time when I only could feel happiness. It sounds like I was such a drama queen, doesn't it? I don't know why, but I felt miserable and pathetic. I didn't have any spirit to continue my life.

Then, a couple days after that, I had a fight with my very very best friend because of something. He was so angry and then he said that I was also changing. He was so disappointed with my attitude to someone on his life. He felt that I became a very different person than I was. He said "Maybe it's not your friend who is changing. Maybe it's you". Then, boom! I remember the comment on my friend's facebook status. After all this time, I think everbody's changing but I didn't realize that some people also think I was also changing. I didn't realize that maybe the other felt distracted with my changes and then they leave me because they don't feel comfortable anymore being around with the new me. But, I didn't remember who I was before, I didn't know how to be the old me. I tried to be more quiet like I used to, I didn't talk much, I only talk when someone else asked me a question. But the other friend of mine said that I used to be a quiet girl, but not that quiet.

Then, I thought it was not only me who was changing, there was no doubt that my friends were also changing, but I still can accepted their changes. I didn't leave them because they were changing. Because that what's friends are for. One day before that fight I thanked God, that I still have him (my very very best friend) and also another best friend who can accept me the way I am. But after that day, I became more and more sad. I thought people are going to leave me one by one. But thank God, that fight didn't last forever. He said that he can accept me the way I am, He only thought that I really crossed the line, and he didn't like it.

Okay now I don't know how to continue this post. Actually the main idea is I think true friends will stay with you until the end of time, when you are changing, they will not leave you without any single word, but they will stay beside you. They will be your reminder. They will tell you that you are changing and they will learn to accept you the way you are.

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Books books books

2010-03-04T20:16:00.004+07:00

I really really want them! Oh my, I need savings plan, because imported books are quite expensive.

The Teen Vogue Handbook by Teen Vogue

The Sartorialist by Scott Schuman

Influence by Mary-Kate Olsen

Who What Wear: Celebrity and Runway Style for Real Life by Hillary Kerr

Street: The Nylon Book of Global Style

Facehunter Books by Yvan Rodic

The Selby Is in Your Place by Todd Selby

New York Look Book: A Gallery Of Street Fashion by Amy Larocca

Kate Moss: Style by Angela Buttolph

Annie Leibovitz at Work by Annie Leibovitz

Style A to Zoe: The Art of Fashion, Beauty, & Everything Glamour by Rose Apodaca

One Fifth Avenue by Candace Bushnell

L.A Candy by Lauren Conrad

as you can see that most of them is about fashion and photography. They are related to my current dream to be a fashion distributor. I think the books, especially the one from teen vogue, will really help me to discover more things about the fashion industry.

Join us

2010-01-08T18:51:00.004+07:00

playing with the light

2010-01-03T19:44:00.003+07:00

heart-shaped bokeh

happy new year!

2010-01-01T20:03:00.006+07:00

okay, it's already 2010. I'm wishing you guys a happy new year!

How was your NYE? Mine is very boring. Alone at my room, then about 11.30 I took pictures of fireworks outside the window. Picture above is the result.

hmmm, now I don't know what to type. So, once again happy new year!

xoxo,
grace

2009-12-26T14:32:00.003+07:00

Fuck this wondering. Fuck this trying and trying. Fuck this belief that two people can become one ideal. Fuck this helplessness. Fuck this waiting for something to happen that probably won’t ever happen.

Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist

december yeah december

2009-12-25T12:47:00.024+07:00

Hey happy holiday and, I'm wishing you all a merry christmas!

I'm not in the mood of writing. So, let the pictures (and the captions) talk. this past 3 weeks, live has been so good with OSIS friends, live in, and many more

i got 4 goldfishes and also the bowl from my dad . Then, i took two of them and placed them in a glass. And as the result, on the next day, two of them dead!! So, there's only two goldfishes left.

ugly face!!

second week of december : we went to school but not for studying. just for having fun

(up - Left to right) reyner, andri, magda, ficka (down - left to right) leon, me, gisel, felis

10th-12th December : with OSIS friends decorated school for christmas & gave our headmistress a birthday surprise

we decorated that gate, so there will be a lil bit christmas atmosphere in our school
(up -left to right) debby, devina, nina, rio, mira (down- left to right) leon, me, andri, reyner

rio, me, alris, devina, mardiyan, clara

a little surprise for our headmistress

13th - 18th December : lived in merapi's slope.
we lived in local people's house and helped our foster parents there. Me and Jane lived in Pa Indra & Bu Indra's house in Semen and helped them in the their field. Then, we went to watch Ramayana ballet at prambanan temple. (click for the larger pictures)

rama & sinta

the temple

grace & candy

my classmates

December 24 : Had a reunion day with ex-9f (the best class ever). We went to Karen's house and playing "tepok nyamuk" and this is the result , all of our faces were covered with powder. even me, reyner, debby, gary, and aldo didn't play, we still got those powder on our face. then the boys (except aldo) started "bullying" me and debby.

fugly fugly fugly!!

then, i spent first hour of my christmas eve in dunkin with reyner and leon.

can you see that i got new hair cut on the last pictures? damn, i hate it so much!!

So, once again, happy holiday!

xoxo,
grace

Choose one!

2009-11-13T22:23:00.001+07:00

which one is true?

#1 love hurts

#2 boys hurt

baby you're so out of focus

2009-11-08T23:39:00.001+07:00

I just made tumblr account, check this out

http://grace17.tumblr.com

Yesterday Me, Audrey, Candy, Sastya, and Jane started work as volunteer at 'Cinta Baca'. It's a library with more than 7000 books. We counted them by ourselves, I'm not kidding. That's our first task. Then, we stamped hundreds of reader digest and national geographic magazines. We worked for 4 hours. Some corners of the library were dusty and made me sneezed, but I love the smell of old book. I found a lot of interesting books and I hope I can find more and more. LOL.

sastya, audrey, candy, jane, me

Suddenly I feel sleepy now. I'm going to edit this post later. See ya

listening to : semi-charmed life - third eye blind

give me gold and fish

2009-10-29T23:52:00.002+07:00

Another quick update

I finally got my midterm report paper last week. Sadly, my GPA is only 78 point something. Yeah, I know it's not so far from my target. And all of the scores are higher than 70. But, I'm not satisfied at all. Now, I'm trying to study harder, but laziness can't stop striking me.

By the way, after 1 month @ Manado for business trip, my dad finally came back last sunday. Then he promised me to buy goldfishes! My gosh, I'm so happy. I really want it so bad. Having a goldfish in the bowl is uber cute!

source : superstock

And he also permitted me to go to Boys Like Girls concert on january. I can't wait for this one!! My friends (sastya, candy, nina, dai, arya, alris, kecap, velda, and so on) will come too. I'm super excited about this, since watching one of my double action heroes <<click>>, martin johnson, is on my THINGS-TO-DO-BEFORE-TURNING-17-LIST (gonna post bout that later).

Me and Udy made our class' t-shirt design. Udy made the front design, then I made the back designs.

The first and the second picts were made using the genarator from wordle. While the third design was made using Adobe photoshop CS2. My classmate did voting, and they chose the first one. I'm going to ask udy to upload her design soon.

edit :
here's udy's design

it's great, isn't it?

So Random

2009-10-17T16:34:00.001+07:00

I'm so not in the mood of blogging. This is the busiest part of my life!

School thingy is killing me. There were tons of exams and homeworks. And I screwed up all of my midterm tests. But, something good came yesterday! Me, Karen, and Sisca won NutriPec. It's a paper competition. I'm so happy that finally I could win something. My mom is also proud of me.

After the judge told that we were the winner, there was another earthquake. But it's not as big as the previous earthquake. I think doomsday is getting closer, but like the bible said it will come like a thief in the night, so I only hope and pray it'll not happen on this century.

quick update

2009-10-14T15:40:00.003+07:00

I think I'm gonna fail chemist on this half-semester! Seriously! I got 3 over 10 for my first daily test! The mid term test and the second daily test was uber difficult. Is that because I'm getting more stupid as I grow older or it's just because subjects on year 11 are getting harder? Only God knows. One think I know is I should study hard to increase my score (my target is 8). I only wish my GPA for this term is higher than 8 (finger-crossed). Gosh! Why does it seem so impossible? Yeah, wish me luck.
My mom keeps asking me about my future-university-major. And I'm still confused bout that. Any sugestion? Gonna think about that later, because now my stress level is 9/10 .

xoxo,
grace

so kawaii

2009-10-11T17:46:00.001+07:00

source : parasolmag

source : a print a day

html

2009-09-25T20:14:00.004+07:00

I'm still maintaining my blog layout. And now I'm a lil bit confused about the header. I made 4 headers, and i don't know which is the best. I want to keep it simple, by the way. Now I'm asking your opinion, which is the best header? Here's the options :

The first

The second

(it's almost same as the first one, I only added heart raining and sun. What I mean with this is after a heart raining, the sun rises and the rainbow comes)

The third

(I added song lyric from Ashley Simpson's song, Little Miss Obssesive. Really love that song.)

The Fourth

Then I also edited the HTML codes, and I just realize HTML thingy is really confusing. But, Thank God I didn't mess my blog. LOL. I will stop writting at my other blog, because I find it's quite difficult to manage 2 blogs .

Gonna show you some of my old stocks, hope you enjoy them :

giveaway(s). yay!

2009-09-23T18:16:00.016+07:00

yesterday I blogwalked to pastel girl, then I saw her post about giveaways. Now I'm also participating on those giveaway. Yeah, wish me luck. Since I dont have anything to do on this holiday, I'm gonna search another giveaway around the blogspot.

Here's the giveaway

1. The first is from lil bit of this and that <<>

2. Another giveaway is from poppylipstain

Prizes: 8 total as of now.

1-Rue 21 headband

2-Select lash glue

3-Select lash #s47

4-Jordana e/s in Minty

5-Jordana all over shimmer in Peach shimmer

6-Jordana lip shine in Just clear

7-Wet wild ultimate brow kit w/ mirror, tweezers, and shaping tool in Ash Brown

8- Wetseal's peacock eyelash

3.from katiecouturexo

1. hot pink patent leather wristlet/clutch
2. mineral elements mineral foundation in beige 2
3. mineral bronzer warmth powder
4. NYX glitter cream pallet 01 Paradise
5. NYX eyeshadow trio in cherry/cool blue/hot pink
6. 3 NYX glitter eyeliners in Silver, Apple, Gold

4. from missmercurylady

5. from ohpuffcake

Prize 1: (1st pic, far top)

Soapalaya Sensitive Skin Moisturizing Soap Sample (Handmade and All-Natural)-----her Etsy shop
Soapalaya Lip Balm in Pomegranate
Pure Spring Body Mist in Jasmine Tuberose
Lip Stick Case with Mirror (from China =D)
ELF Studio Complexion Brush
EcoTools Foundation and Blender Brushes
ELF Natural Radiance Blusher in Glow
CoverGirl Cheekers Bluch in Pretty Peach

Prize 2: (2nd pic)

Soapalaya Lip Balm in Asian Pear
Bath and Body Works Body Splash in Velvet Tuberose
NC24 Long Lasting Extra Rich Cream
ELF Studio Blush in Peachy Keen
Maybelline Mineral Power Illuminator in Nude
Forever21 Brown and Gold Bracelet/Bangles
A pretty pair of Light Blue Dangley Earrings

5. from my simple randomness

click here to visit the entry

6. from shanghainesedumpling

7.from loveeverydaylife

This is the handmade bag by Kinies you could potentially win! (Check out more great things from her Etsy shop, Kinies Design here).

However, you're not just going to win this bag - there will be some other items in there:

- a bottle of OPI's "I'm Not Really A Waitress," nail polish (to see the color, click here)
- a $10 gift card to Borders
- a $5 gift card to Starbucks (because really, what good is a fall day without a good book and a delicious drink?)
- and...a couple other things (all fall-related) that I won't quite reveal yet

8.from lettersfromhomefront

9. from the orchard

such a cute book, isn't it?

10. from cheeky little thing

11. from thesuburbanjungle

12. from kenzie poo

xoxo,

grace

hell-o biology!

2009-09-07T21:30:00.009+07:00

Today, my class done a chicken surgery to analyze the anatomy of the chicken, it was screamed 'eeww', 'yuck', etc. Do you wanna see the poor chicken, click here (audrey's blog). I was so stupid for not bringing the camera today. My wish is same as audrey's, may it rest in peace :p

After school, me and some friend went to XXI, watched Final Destination 4. After a couple of months and so, finally I watched movie at the cinema. It seems like today is full with violence. The movie quite frightened me, the way the characters dead were quite disgusting, especially the pool death scene. Wish I can sleep well today without any weird dreams about this movie (fingger-crossed).

i don't know why, but lately i really really love moon and cloud

edit : september 23

happy birthday indonesiaaa!

2009-08-17T19:39:00.001+07:00

wallpaper

2009-08-08T01:00:00.006+07:00

here's some of my old stock wallpapers, i made a new deviantart account because i wanted to change the url of my old deviantart account. click on the images for the larger image on my deviantart

checkout my deviantart account!
since i still have no time for editing photos or making a new wallpaper, i am just going to re-submit the photos and wallpaper from my old account

xoxo,
grace

autumn and lotus

2009-08-07T23:59:00.008+07:00

Since you went away the days grow long
And soon I'll hear old winter's song
But I miss you most of all my darling
When autumn leaves start to fall

Autumn Leaves - Nat King Cole

another giveaway

2009-08-07T00:41:00.000+07:00

1. Shrimp salad circus giveaway

2. etsy it up and bead up giveaway

3. Epheriell Designs giveaway

win $25 gift voucher to spend in the Cut Copy Create store

3. Audrey's Country Crafts giveaway : This Little Piggy

4. chaching couponing giveaway

5. Chachkedesigns giveaway

6. rant-rave-roll giveaway

7 . frostings giveaway

First prize: A sterling silver bracelet with a hand stamped disc and freshwater pearl.

Second Prize :A custom family stick pendant on an organza ribbon necklace or a key chain if you prefer.
Third prize: An adjustable hand stamped ring bearing your monogram

8. the fabulous finds giveaway

8. the fabolous finds & joys hope giveaway

quick update

2009-08-06T18:39:00.004+07:00

Hey
It seems like this blog has been the abandoned blog, LOL. Why? Because i'm so damn busy since i've got into natural science program. And the other reason is i am kinda not good in english, so i rather post my story on my other blog, [got a pocketful of sunshine], where i use BAHASA.

My friend , andriani, told me to watch this video from mikeinel on deviantart. I think it's so damn sweet. I didn't really understand about the ending, but andriani told me that the girl gave her other hand to the boy. You should watch it! I don't think there's a love like that in the REAL world, by the way, i really want to post something about love thingy later, LOL

then, i want to show you my new class XI IPA 3, I still don't feel the togetherness in my class. There are 39 students in my class. here they are

our first shot on anti-drugs campaign day. I'm quite proud of my class, because we are the first class that did a photo shot among the other class in my year group. By the way, me and candy become the class treasurers.

xoxo,
grace :)

under construction page

2009-07-04T17:06:00.001+07:00

the first birthday posting

2009-06-19T00:04:00.004+07:00

kristina and me :)
SOOO, HAPPY BIRTHDAY KRISTINA DWIJAYANTI!!
WISH YA ALL THE BEST

uuuuw yeaaaah

2009-06-10T23:20:00.003+07:00

HOLIDAY IS COMING!!!
yeayyyy! there's a lotta plans in my mind for this holiday. but the one i wanna do the most is learning how to cook well. currently, i love browsing for recipes, especially dessert and cake recipes. and it's kinda fun knowing a lot of house wives have blog whose entry is about recipes, and a lot of them try to learn about food photography. one of my fav food blog (the other trend beside fashion blog i think, lol) is here. she has a lot of great food photographs. check out her bentos, it makes me want to learn cooking and take it to school everyday, showing off my bentos to my friend (silly me).
oh, i almost forget i decided to build a new blog because the lack of my english grammar and vocab. it's on indonesian language. and i probably will write mostly on that blog than here. cause i'm sick of seeing my entry here, bordering me telling you all the things in my mind. huh!

okay, g2g now

xoxo,
grace :)

busy week

2009-06-07T21:19:00.004+07:00

this week activities :
mon-tues : exams!
yuck! finally it's over man! woot woot! 8 days are more than enough for an exam week

wed-fri : class meeting.
1. i took lot of pictures with my new cameraaa. i'm gonna post the picts later.
2. my class lost all of the games (futsal, basketball, chess and ping pong)
3. i watched my crush played futsal and it made me felt christmas came on June!
4. me and my classmates cheered for our team, so we screamed and shouted! and now my throat is totally hurted. but we all have a lot of fun y'know..
actually there's also some remedial tests, but i was free from all that f-test! yeayyyy!

sat : hibernation

sunday : got interview for the student exchange program. it sucked. i didn't do any preparation. but thank God, i still could handle it.

i'm so exhausted now. and i'm still waiting for my mom to get back from Jojga. I planned to visit Jogja with my mom, but it was canceled because of the test i told you before. my mom told me that my dad will take me to Jogja next friday and will come back to bogor on next sunday, but i think it also will be canceled, because i should take my first confirmation class on church. huh! i really wanna go to jogja so bad.

okay G2G now

xoxo,
grace

a brand new me

2009-06-04T02:16:00.003+07:00

Can't you see that I'm a changed man (girl)
That I've learned from my mistakes
I will never be the same man (girl)
I used to be
It's a whole new me
Venus In Flames - Whole new me

you'll see that i'm not the grace that you knew anymore. i'm completely gonna change my self, gonna be a stronger girl with a great defensive, so no one can hurt me again, no one can use me again. a-i-don't-care-what-you-think-about-me-girl is also a great idea for the new me. so. let's see this record keep playing my whole drama with my new role. say goodbye to the old me!

xoxo,
grace :)